Here's what I want you to do first, to really get the best results out of this course.
COMMIT, PRACTICE, BELIEVE
If you want to learn you need to commit to it, you don't learn to swim by only dipping your toe in the water, same with lettering. You need to jump all the way in, learn all you can learn, and really engage in the learning process. You need to practice, very often, like every day, even 10 minutes a day of doing some deliberate practice will get you results. And most of all, believe in yourself and your abilities, you will get there.